Oh, boy is God dealing with me! Well actually, I think he is preparing me. I have recently started communicating with a gentleman I met on a Christian online dating site. And boy am I being challenged. I have always made Godly Man number one on my list of attributes that I want in a husband. Well the gentleman that I have been corresponding with is showing me how much God means to him and has challenged me in my knowledge and commitment to the Word, and a few other things. My initial thought was “who are you to test me?” I mean how dare him, right? I know who I am. Yes I know who I am but he does not. And he is doing the right thing, the smart thing. He is asking the really serious questions. Finding out where my heart truly lays. He is digging for the truth not just looking at the surface or listening to my pretty words. He has caused me to do some self-examination. I have had to ask myself “am I really ready to submit?”, “am I willing to give up the role that I have held so long as head of the family?”, “am I really ready for a man the puts God ahead of me?”. These are the things we say we want in a mate but when we actually come face-to-face with the possibility of it, it is a little sobering. I ask myself these questions and my answer is still a resounding YES. Is there a lot of work involved? YES. Will the flesh have to die? OH YES. Will it be easy? NO. Am I willing to do it? OH YES,YES,YES. Now don’t get me wrong I am not saying he is "The One" and that we are getting married. I am saying that should this relationship end tomorrow I have learned a lot from it. And I thank GOD for every opportunity HE gives me to grow.
May 15, 2012 at 12:24 AM
Wow! What an awesome opportunity to grow in your knowledge and faith!!! Karma